challenges ... LOST PHONE ... reminders ... FUTBOL [this is a long ass blog!]

i know it's been a while ... but hey ... i'm looking for a job! [anyone hiring!?!]

i'm in DC for a few weeks working on a few things before i go back to providence ... so holler at me ... and I LOST MY PHONE [again ... i think i need to write another blog about how i always get some hella deep life lesson whenever i loose my phone! ] ... please hit me with your # and stuff! PLEASE! and let me know when i can see some of my long lost DC peoples!!!


speaking of DC ... check out my DC/NC peoples Yahzarah/Purple Saint James new video!!!

it's truly outrageous!

i've been busy ... getting ready for www.ProvidenceSoundSession.com

w/ my dude DON KING "VIP", jess powers and munch w/ the funny face ...




but anyway ...

life is funny ...

well ... sometimes it is ...
at least the perception that others have of your life is often funny ...

this is when in get a little more serious and personal than usual (but still not too specific! ... you know i'm not invested 100% into this internet community. i still like to talk & meet people face to face ... in real life!)

anyway ...

i present myself as a positive, uplifting person ... in the eyes of others i think that people see me as something to aspire to. this isn't a source of pride for me because it's something that i feel i have a responsibility to do. i grew up in a community of people that LIVED the "each one, teach one" philosophy. i will continue to be an example of a man black man that others can look at in a positive light.

but ...

there's more to my life than what people see ... i'm more than the moving snapshots that ones eyes can see ...

for the past year i have dug a hole for myself in a bunch of ways. and right now i'm not sure what's important to me. right now ... the only unquestionable reply to this question is love & community. the other thing thing that makes me happy is music. yes

there are things & people that i love and enjoy sharing my time and energy and being with and doing stuff but ... community is what makes me happy.

but right now times are hard ... and my recent hardships are also due to my passion for community. and part of my instability is due to my love for music and my fear of entering the industry where i've seen too many people loose their love for music because of the politics and stress around working inside the belly of the beast.

it's the oxymoronic me ... that's not me ... but is me. it's what you see, what you get and what you don't see. the internal & external balance that is me.

i'm ready to settle ... not for average, but to settle in the sense that i've been a roaming gypsy for years ... i'm ready to settle down and have a physical place outside of myself that i feel is home.

my menta-physical (mental and physical) state is still not settled.

i w as reminded about my trip to paris b a old friend today. i hadn't really sat down and talked with her since my trip.

as i spoke to her i was reminded about some of the things i learned and about the changes that i had noticed in myself.

so ... just a few notes that i want to share

* take time to enjoy the day. be in the moment. it will help you to be able to learn from your past experiences and to plan for your future.

* be creative. [i think that everyone should write & sing in shower!]

* eat for more than just to nourish your body. enjoy your food. taste your food. eat slowly.


* have a theme song!: you know ... that song that you'd want to hear when you came out of a comma or even better the song that would wake you out of a comma! yea, that song!

* be aware if you are doing things because you are comfortable VS doing things that make you happy. know the difference.

* know that there is value in knowing the things that you don't like ... BUT ... when you are clear and focus on the things that you have passion for/like/love your life will reflect that!

* karma is what we make it ... too many people live in fear of karma. we all have choices and are empowered to create change. use karma to empower, not disable.

* don't dwell in the fear ... use the power of choice to transfer the energy of fear into to the power of change

that's all for now ...


and here's a little creativity ...

UNTITLED

left hand
writes random notes
intentionally etching on my heart
marking married clouds that drip
wet dreams where eye dew like sleep sits
on a wrist where a hand reaches past the crest
the clock chimes ...

it's over
end
begin
start over

time


HAIKU

no matter the speed
catching the light is easy
try catching time ... go


***yea i know i gotta post my poems form poetry month but ... some were on my phone and i hadn't retyped them. i'll post some soon.

... AND ...

***i was reminded by my dude stuckey just how excited i am about the WORLD CUP!!!

futbol/soccer is the sport i LOVE!!!

i played for years and even coached youth one season w/ my pops while i was in high school. [i think we went to the championship and lost on kicks]

the idea that w/o using your hands and with only a ball you can not only have fun & stay fit you can also start a international exploration!

futbol was what made different cultures relevant and real to me. i remember a tournament where we played against teams from haiti, france and canada. it may ahve been the first time i really heard someone speaking another language besides english or spanish. it opened doors to my imagination and to the possibilities of where i could go and what i could do.

WORLD CUP 2010 ...




if you want little cheat sheet on who to look for ... here you go ... here you go ...



SHINE,
weusi

stuff ... world, bazaar, fear, univerbal, hayti, goddis, china, mocky, washington, return

DIG IT ... i had issues w/ embedding videos in this and i don't know html enough to really look at this stuff thoroughly so i did what i could ... SOOOO
do click the link (right click into and open another window if you want)

right now ... the house is full of people and they are all talking about art and life and stuff and i'm focused on this keyboard. yes it's a little anti-social but hey ... i'm not as social as people think and i need to write this. actually ...
i took a break from writing ... and ate. and now we're going on a tour of the parisian underground!

so ... last night i'm sitting at a table of world travelers. cats are telling stories about spain, australia, new zealand, all over europe and asia, numerous countries in africa, the middle east, north, south and central america, for real ... world travelers. and who are they ... a farmer, a poet, a tattoo artist, a photographer, leathersmith and me. everyone is special and holds a sense of magic magic in their own right. the rest have long embraced their powers. i've recognized mine, but even now, i'm struggling to embrace the shine. it's a constant battle. i know i'm destine for great things but i don't feel prepared for fame or wealth at times in part because there was a time in my life where i let money guide my actions. i was a money hungry monster. now success scares me sometimes. i know the kind of success that i'm destine for is larger than "U" street. but "U" street has a great way for me to practice being successful. i know there have been some battles with self discipline that i have lost on u street. now i'm weary of bigger success at times. but hey ... i've grown and over come issues too. i tell others that far too often we focus on our losses instead of seeing all the things we've accomplished. as i write this ... i'm starting to feel pretty good about some of the things i've done. i'm feeling hella humbled right now.

random thought: i'm still trying to shake this fear thing. and ... i'm a little messed up because i realized that i am 3 weeks behind schedule on my work on getting settled back in dc. i need to redo my resume and get back into the habit of punching a clock. and a lot more. i really do think i'm superdude and i get mad at myself for having human limitations sometimes!

anyway ... i'll be back in the states soon enough. it's a daunting feeling. i feel like i'm just starting to get in the mix of things here heavy ... but now i need to start to wrap my head around my return. but i'm not ready ... yet at the same time ... i am in a space that is really different from when i left. i like the hustle but i don't need it like i thought i did. i know i need stability to move forward. i know now that i can write better than i thought i could. i know now that i often gain a lot by doing nothing. i look forward to sitting somewhere and doing nothing in DC. i wanna write more. i want to continue this blog thing. i feel connected to the art of writing now. i like it. i want to make time to do it in my life. (haha that sounds so stoic!)

recently ... i've been reminded that i work best (more, efficiently, longer, harder, smarter) when a part of a team. i'm looking for the right team. i think that i'm ready to be on a team. i've got some people around me that i feel are ready to fill the roles needed. if you're ready ... lets go! ;)

ok ... now for the fun stuff ...

on sunday i went to this holiday marketplace bazaar thingy ...

it was cool. in this nice big grand hall and it had live performances and fashion shows. it was a afri-carribean focused event that highlighted hayti.

some of the acts were ...
a hip hop artist named alibi montana (i wish i knew where he got that name from!)

mellisa laveaux ... a dope hatian/french/candian on NO FORMAT Records distributed by universal records france.

the headline was a hatian band called company creole ... i can't find any links to them so come back in a few days i'll have it!

i was there as a guest of my peoples romain & ferricia of UNIVERBAL which put out the album Enfants Soldats. i mess with these cats because they not only good people but they are also about their biz. 80% of the proceeds of the albums sales goes to an organization in the congo that is actively working against youth soldiering and re-integration. (remember to check the links!)

it was a a cool event ...

and i met this cat mike sylla ...
who has a wealth of things going on! So ... the funny thing about this dude is that we're talking and he's telling me about his art, his store, his poetry and his play and then says ... "you know queen godis!" check the video's on the link!

oh ... and the other day i met a dope jazz vocalist china moses who has a rock project in addition to this jazz project.





and in new music ...
and www.novaplanet.com is that ohhhh weeeee!!!
this dude ... "mocky" is dope!!!



get on it!



and dude can actually play. peep him here with another dope dude gonzales.

another random thought: did you know that they have a different typing keyboard here in europe? and it's cool because non-typing people like me have a little advantage on people that learned how type in school because i still look at the keyboard! hahaha ... it's funny to me!

oh ... china also turned me on to this video of RAY CHARLES doing what he do, baby!
this is a christmas song sung like no other!
HINT: you may want to watch this with a significant other!



oh and i got hipped to this site www.grioo.com

i found this there ...



only 14% of us citizens have passports ... even if you can't get t ticket anywhere right now ... get one ... JUST IN CASE!!!

SHiNE,
weusi
i gotta learn html!