Friday, June 3, 2011

vulnerability

i just had a moment ...

my homegirl @msavril2 just tweeted something from @FXRAVIN ...

"The strongest & most confident women want to share their vulnerabilities with their man. So handle them with care!”

in this moment i realize that i think people gravitate to me because they feel that i am sensitive to the many peoples vulnerabilities. i'm not threatening or judgmental (don't confuse that with me being a soft and/or not haveing an opinion!). that's a honor and at the same time a responsibility. now, as i think about it ... i felt fake ... see ...

although i am truly receptive/empathetic/sympathetic ... i don't think that i've been vulnerable. it's hard to explain ... and honestly ... true vulnerability isn't something that you can pullout on demand. so understand ... this isn't me being vulnerable ... its me talking myself through a process ...

i share what i'm comfortable with. sometimes i feel that i may share more than what others share, but my standards are not the same.
this is what comes to mind ...
if my well is 20 feet and others are 10 feet deep then going 7 feet under isn't as much a deal, right?

i think my work in the arts has given me a deeper well of empathy and understanding of feeling, emotions, experiences ... and people in general.

ok ... now this feels like i'm trying to be make myself vulnerable ... so i'm not gonna try to make it more than it is.

i'll get into the transitions of gil scott heron, ji jagga geronimo pratt & will "da real one" bell at a later time ... maybe. (i'll addd pics later ... i just need to get these thoughts out.)

let the people you care for know that they are special to you ... and those that share things w/ you that help make you day a little better ... and do it today ... tomorrow isn't promised

and that's all ...

SHINE